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>>8791 (OP) 
from experience, people tend to distance themselves from really emotional people, especially people who trauma dump online
not entirely sure why, but i think it is because of the (perceived) risk of drama
all i can recommend is staying calm because getting mad is how that relationship ends permanently
nothing is owed to you on the internet

All relationships are transient and all prople fade away, don't be too hard on yourself for having experienced it once. I think everyone goes through a point in their life where they lose a friend and it can be pretty messy for some

From a cynical point of view I'd say that relationship is just over and you should move on and not worry about it any more. You could still try to salvage it but I would doubt it based on how you've described the other person acting towards you. Just remember every failure is a learning experience and the absolute word thing you could do here is walk away from this situation without having learned anything

IDK people are insane and fucked up

>>8791 (OP) 
I'm sure you can make new friends anon

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>>8791 (OP) 
I figure there are certain nuances missing from the story here that make it impossible to get the complete picture but this is probably enough to suggest letting him be for the time being. 
That is unless he is going through another episode of depression and you are certain you can make him feel better. If that's not the case then for now it's probably best to give him some space. Just letting him know you'll be there waiting for him if/when he eventually decides to reach out is good enough.
Not having been for him in the past is kind of bad but you've owed up for it and have made yourself available now so it's fine-ish.  

>last two months just made me more depressive and suicidal 
Oh no don't dwell on it too much, best to focus on something else. Thinking too hard and overanalyzing is a downwards-leading spiral, makes it harder to climb back up. Good times will come again, they always do (unless you're like 80 and the ungrateful kids have locked you up in a nursing home to hold fursuiting parties in your house). If you wish to snap out of it faster try some new hobbies or travel around or just otherwise add some variety to the daily life. Getting started takes a lot of effort but it gets easier the more momentum you build.

Ditto with friends, it does feel like it's more difficult to make meaningful lasting connections these days but you get like infinite attempts now. Get yourself together (previous paragraph) and just talk to people, some will stick around. Good luck!