>>119292 (OP)
Aiming to at least put some lines down every day is probably one of the only two positive habits I've adopted in the past few years. The progress is excruciatingly slow however and whenever there is a period of not enough time invested, it regresses. A Sisyphean affair for sure but better than not trying in the first place.
>>119331
>doomscrolling and hoping that i eventually find somewhere that i fit in
>>119346
> i'll likely never fit in any group or social space anyway.
Could this be a sort of self-fulfilling prophecy? Expectations of a negative outcome affecting behavior? In your opinion, what does "fitting in" feel and look like? What does it entail? (not rhetorical questions, it would just help to form a better understanding of what the end goal here is)
Close friends are rare to come by but such friendships usually develop out of ordinary acquaintance so if you don't meet anyone you likely won't suddenly get a bff either.
Sometimes it feels that people either overthink or, well, underthink, the whole social thing. Either way, it's difficult to deny that the internet and the social media in their current form have negatively impacted the way people interact, make friends and form cliques. You'd think things would get much better now that talking to strangers from the other side of the planet is a trivial matter but everything is more shallow these days. People don't value the connections they make as much, I suppose.
>>119346
>all people talk about things i don't understand, and frankly, that i just don't really care about.
Not caring is "normal" (at least to an extent, in any clique conversations will sometimes stray to uninteresting topics, though you can also try and steer them towards what you wish to discuss). Not understanding is weird though, unless it's a generational gap thing or the group is talking about advanced post-grad sort of concepts or something?
> i've found myself going outside frequently just to catch some breeze, look at trees and appreciate the silence. it brings peace to my mind.
That sounds lovely. Far too many people are so consumed by the rat race that they don't even seem to remember that this is an option.
>i'm also trying to make things "fit in" to me instead, hope it works.
Good idea. "Just bee yourself" is a solid suggestion in general, but should come with a caveat of having the ability to analyze one's own shortcomings (objectively negative traits, like insincerity, leaving people hanging, greediness etc) and putting at least some work toward ironing those out.
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