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I can't sleep. I've laid here and listened to my body and the problem breaks down like this: my nervous system almost feels like it's burning with energy. This finds an outlet in my legs which must move. They must twitch, and bounce, and kick, and so on, just to soothe the burning feeling at the center of my chest. My mind is also racing with thoughts, with a love for information and thinking. This is simple enough to suppress. I merely need to "spam" the log of my mind with a singular thought to shut that down (something like "I will sleep" over and over again) or the cliche sheep counting. Then there is my body itself. My limbs do not feel tired, but my torso does. My spine and back in particular do not wish to leave the bed, so my body anchors me here and lets me know that I should sleep. Yet this electrical feeling stretching from the center of my chest down to my legs does not let me stay still. It's the same feeling as anxiety or excitement but with no discernible cause. Sometimes I'll also feel it during the day. My nerves cannot be reconciled with the rest of me. Breathing techniques can suppress them, but I must keep doing them or the feeling creeps back in. This is not always the case. Sometimes the feeling is mild enough that said breathing techniques do shut it down properly, but it is evident now that there are levels to it.
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No.7790 [Reply] 
>>7770
What's the deal with SSRIs again? I was on fluoxetine for a few months. I feel it did more than the shitty therapy they gave me. But then I got off it and I'm fine... I think. I just used it as a boost to get out of that awful, dreadful feeling I seem to have entirely induced myself by fixating on melancholy.
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The only "me" there is, is the chemicals in my brain.  Taking muh HAPPY PILLZ(tm) to replace them with different chemicals amounts to a form of suicide.  That is alarming.  It alarmed me further to hear a shrink last year say "Your brain?  Oh, no, it doesn't affect your brain.  It just affects your mood!"  That was when I decided I could no longer take him seriously.

Maybe there's something wrong with me.  Maybe I'm the crazy one.  But, see, back before it was so commonplace, I observed a couple of women have epic meltdowns when told their HAPPY PILLZ(tm) prescription refills were delayed.  This was only slightly more disturbing than the bug-eyed SSRI stares they displayed when they were on the stuff.  Now, of course, they tell us half the population is gobbling that shit up.  "It makes ya feel better!  Try it, it's good!"  I have heard the same sales pitch for booze, weed, cocaine, electroshock therapy, and prefrontal lobotomies.  No thanks.  I don't want any of that shit, and, just between us, I don't want to be around people who get their coping skills from a pill bottle, either.  You may think of it as leaving more for you, if you like.

None of the people trying to get me to consoom any of that stuff ever listened for three seconds when I said "I am depressed because my mom died last month and I just got laid off, I just went blind in one eye, I have medical bills coming in that I can't pay, my life
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No.7799 [Reply] 
>>7793
i can fix you
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No.7800 [Reply] 
>>7799
That's what SHE said!
No.7802 [Reply] 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mH7PCUmr57Y
>>7793
I wasn't trying to sell you on them. I was just curious what the purported negatives of their consumption are. I too was hesitant to take said medication at first and ditched it as soon as I felt better and stable enough to escape and stay out of that pit on my own. And my reasoning was the same: I conceived of them as protracted, chemical "lobotomies" which erase the self and replace it with someone else. That's exactly the same reason I've always considered the concepts of psychology and psychiatry strange, and their acceptance as normal even stranger. These are fields whose focuses are the study of the mind and, ultimately, its manipulation to shape it into-- ostensibly-- a "healthier" state. In theory, that's a benign and noble cause but there's always the question of who decides what a "healthy" mind is.
So I've always been wary of therapy and psychiatric medication for that reason. Then again, therapy itself is just conversation, no different from any other. If one's self is altered by means of conversation, that's only natural. That's what changing one's mind is. The "self" must constantly die. The chemicals in the brain fluctuate perpetually, be it by natural or artificial means.
But I took those pills anyways because whatever it is that I
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What do you think the admin's politics are? If I had to guess, probably some kind of zionism
No.7796 [Reply] 
evangelical zionism
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Rosicrucianism
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No.7801 [Reply] 
>>7797
Cool pikchur
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There's just not enough time to go around.
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No.7791 [Reply] 
>>7789 (OP) 
Can't go around?
Then just go right through it!
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No.7792 [Reply] 
>>7791
Based time traveler.
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"I am not human. This body and this heart are constructs. Yes, as is this sorrow."
No.7781 [Reply] 
Who are you quoting?
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No.7782 [Reply] 
>>7781
phillip
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Let's see how America is doing

Ah.

Keep having a normal one America
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>>7778 (OP) 
Why would the chudslop video lie to me

https://www.snopes.com/fact-check/video-trans-middle-school-class/
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I've had zero luck in getting a real job with serious pay for years now, so I contacted a government job finding service as a last resort. They agreed to help and I agreed to take an initial appointment with them to determine if I needed their services. Waited a month on that. At the appointment, we both agreed that this could help me. Wait two more months for them to appoint a psychologist to give me a cognitive assessment to determine which jobs would be a good fit for me (standard procedure. They deal with mental retards most of the time, you know). Wait four months. Take the cognitive test; another month of waiting, and today they gave me the results over the phone. Occupations they recommend for me based off of the sections of the test I excelled at are: medical IT, radiology assistant, network administrator, and some other IT position I don't remember.


NONE OF THESE POSITIONS ARE HIRING


When I told the woman over the phone that I've looked at all of these, some with solid credentials and certifications, and found that they were impossible to get into from the entry level regardless of amount of certifications or prior experience in high school, she turned quiet and accepted and acknowledged that this is a common problem for people they engage with. Nothing for autistic people is hiring. She didn't really have an answer for helping me find a position at something else I'm good at that is fucking hiring and just offered for me to take a physical course on ??? to
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No.7728 [Reply] 
I have an appointment at the state employment agency tomorrow, they know that I don't want to work and only go there so that I wouldn't have to pay the NEET health insurance tax. Anyway have you tried getting on welfare?
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No.7732 [Reply] 
>>7682 (OP) 
The job market is truly in a horrendous situation right now. I don't know the proper solution either because I got a tech job during covid when it was easy to get tech jobs but I probably wouldn't be able to get hired had I tried in current year. Whatever solace it gives you, just know most of your peers are experiencing the same thing
No.7742 [Reply] 
>>7728
Not OP.  I had a lot of health problems in 2020, oddly enough not related to the rice rabies except that the hospitals kept refusing to admit me when I showed up in the emergency room in agony.  They said there was a decree from the governor saying it was illegal to admit people to the hospital who didn't have muh covidz or were otherwise in immediate extreme danger of death.  The state supreme court struck it down as unconstitutional months later, but  I ended up with spinal nerve damage and spent the second half of the year in physical therapy, learning how to walk all over again.  I have my good days and my bad days and on my bad days I'm bedridden.  On my very bad days I'm in the emergency room again getting prepped for another surgery.  I mean, it could be worse.  There were people denied cancer treatment for almost a year in this state and a lot of them died.  Maybe I'm one of the lucky ones, even if I don't always feel like it.

But this is my point.  It took three years of hearings, three years of form letters coming in the mail months later saying the claim was denied due to ineligibility, if you wish to contest the findings of the board please fill out these forms, three years of interviews, three years of soliciting letters from the surgeons and the social workers at the hospital, to get on SSDI, and I'm paying out almost two thirds of it for rent every month.  Cannot recommend.
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No.7776 [Reply] 
>>7742
That's fucked. I thought America was the easiest and most generous place to get on gibs, second only to the UK, maybe that's just for niggers and illegals.
No.7777 [Reply] 
>>7742
I'm sorry to hear that anon, I pray things get better soon
No.7771 [Reply] [Watch] [Open]
All porn should be allowed in this website as long as it doesn’t show any exposed genitals or any other harder stuff
>So you want to allow softcore porn?
Yes
No.7772 [Reply] 
That's already allowed. The rule is
>Do not post exposed genitals, bare female nipples, ...
Does this not grant you that freedom already? I've seen plenty of what you've described posted here already. Now, few will take kindly to you making such posts on /anthro/ but that is a freedom they're granted as well. Unless you're suggesting that the rules should be amended to protect such posts from such upset. That simply won't and shouldn't happen.
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>blah blah blah words words words
Can you like shur up?
*SHAKES ASS*
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>>>7772
>>blah blah blah words words words
>Can you like shur up?
>*SHAKES ASS*
We're on /b/, janny
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HNNG... MAYBE IF I GOON TO AVERI ONE MORE TIME... THE WHITE RACE WILL RISE AGAIN... AND FINALLY, BROWNS WILL STOP MAKING FUN OF ME IN FORTNITE LOBBIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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No.7749 [Reply] 
>>7725 (OP) 
Us chuds do this lol
No.7751 [Reply] 
>>7725 (OP) 
I'm going to goon to averi right now to see if this works
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No.7755 [Reply] 
>>7751
pls report back on whether the method bears fruit or not
No.7756 [Reply] 
>>7751
Keep us updated pls
No.7769 [Reply] 
>>7751
So, did it work?
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President Trump Reportedly Passes New Law Allowing You To Carry An Axe In Public And Swing It At Old People's Heads If They Stare At You For Too Long
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No.7765 [Reply] 
>>7763 (OP) 
Why do some people capitalize all words like this? Explain yourself.
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No.7766 [Reply] 
>>7765
That post is written like the title of a news article, and you capitalize all the words in a title.
...Well, except for the exceptions, which tend to be little short words like articles and prepositions, but the exceptions aren't technically standardized.
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